Moving. Babies. STRESS STRESS STRESS
So we are moving tomorrow. Into another apartment but this one is very large and I am excited to say that we are going to have a much bigger room as well as our own full size bathroom. I want to figure out how to efficiently organize the room to be both kid and parent friendly. I am drilling my brain on how I can make this possible. I have the will to I just have to make my way and figure it out a day at a time. Thus far I have already decided on the Theme of our bathroom. Its an angelic Owl set that we stumbled upon at Target today. Its cute and fun and girly without being too PINK for Alex. I do want to get a cork board and a dry eraser board to help us be more organized. I have also decided to convert our current over the toilet organizer into a closet organizer. I am determined to keep this room clean and organized by any means possible. With this drilling my mind I am stressing about the normal stresses of moving. I am no stranger to moving so I am trying to be as prepared and efficient. Most importantly I have to keep my cool. I am known for losing it for a second or to during a move because I easily get overwhelmed. I can not get over whelmed, I must work hard to stay focused on the task at hand. Thus far I am ok. I am remaining as calm as I can but moving is stressful to say the least.
On lighter news, work has been going great. I am getting accustomed to the ” Hanna” ways and working hard to maintain the current promotion possibility thats been presented. I am excited to prosper with Hanna Andersson. Its truly a great place to work not to mention the plus of being able to shop for the girls on a discount and the clothes are such great quality. We snagged a pair the 100% Organic Cotton “Short Johns” . They have little monsters on them in pink and purple . They are super soft and comfy and Zakyrah in all her cuteness growls at me when she wears them lls. Also got them a couple of dresses and Zaliyah got some cotton crawler pants, I am in love with Hanna Clothes and definitely can see myself shopping there for years to come.
I still have to get this move done. Hopefully I can get the room together fast. Updates and pictures are soon to come.
Yana
Mothers Day
Happy Mothers Day, Mommys - my day was absolutely horrible. I come to the realization that I have no one in my corner- that everyone is for themselves and whatever I want just doesn’t matter - I spent majority of today yelling and fighting and arguing- to top it off my left arrow key is now broken and missing on my fuckin MAC - this is all bullshit - utter bullshit - OFF TO BLOW MY MIND!
Yana
I’m a horrible blogger
I am so sorry - I wish I was more consistent with my post but its so hard for me right - I trying to get there though - please bear with me
Looking for a smile.
So I have officially had a job for 2 wks now. I buried my SAHM dreams deep down inside, theres little hope that I will ever be a SAHM again. Everyday so far that I have left for work Zakyrah cries and when I get off she is extra clingy but then there was today.
We normally get to the mall with a few minutes to spare for me to try to calm Kiwi down but today I had no time. I had to buckle her in and kiss her goodbye all the while she is screaming. When Kiwi realized regardless how much she screamed that I was leaving her then she started screaming ” Ma-ma”. That hurt because when she calls for her ” Ma-ma” that means she is crying for an ex-friend of mine that more than likely she will never see again all because of some dumb shit. She hasn’t seen ” Ma-ma ” in like 2 months now so why she started asking for her has me puzzled. Then once I got off work Kiwi seemed very distant from me.
She wont talk to me now. Doesn’t want me to do anything for her and won’t even watch TV with me. IDK I feel like she hates me for leaving her. And I hate me for leaving her too. I have no friends, I have no one. I am tired of being judged for everything. And selfishly enough I want out. I am tired of being sad, alone, and unhappy. I want better but it seems like it just will never be.
I’m looking for a smile, something to keep me going, because right now I feel like a failure by every definition.
Yana
&& Then there was WIC to my rescue
So I already told you all about how my breast pump broke this past Monday and how I haven’t had any milk for Boogie on the 2 days I worked. Well I shared my breastfeeding concerns to my supervisor whom also happens to be a Lactation Consultant. She told me ” Girl go to WIC” and today that is the first thing I did. I went right into my WIC office without an appointment and told them how I had recently gone back to work and my breast pump broke. They immediately checked my files to verify that I indeed was an “Exclusively Breastfeeding Mama” and immediately issued me a breast pump which was not only brand new but was also mines to KEEP free of charge. They also gave me a reusable shopping bag thats bright pink and says ”Breastfeeding is the best start for baby” which is great because our county charges 5cents if you don’t have your own bag while shopping. So far I have been able to get 3oz of Milk from the Manual pump. Oh and did I mention its a trusty MEDELA HARMONY MANUAL PUMP …..
So far I am super excited and hopefully that with this pump I am able to continue breastfeeding without problem. I would just hate for her to have to start drinking FORMULA because of me going back to work.
Love,
Yana
My First day ……………. began with an FML
So Monday was my first day working at Hanna Andersson. It was awesome but I spent a lot of the day worried about my wittle Boogie. I woke up Monday all sicced for work and decided to pump a bottle or two for Boogie since I seem to be able to pump more in the mornings and guess what happened? I sat there for a pump on each boob for like 20 minutes and nothing came out. It runs on an adapter so I know it wasn’t a battery issue so Boogie ended up being left with not much milk ( like 2oz-all I was able to pump)FML. I was so worried that she was here giving Alex the time of his life. Remember not only was it my first day at Hanna’s but it was also Alex’s official first day as Stay at Home Dad. To our surprise he did great, I was able to contact the pediatrician who Okayed the idea of giving Boogie a little 1% Milk on a as needed basis. Alex only ended up giving her about 1.5oz and she actually loves it. I think she enjoys drinking from actual cup , she never took to the bottle as well as she is taking to these NUBY starter sippys. I only worked for 5 hours so as soon as I was off I rushed home to Nurse my Boogie who was completely knocked out when I arrived home. She slept for like 45 minutes which was great because I was able to settle down and spend that time with Kyrah who had missed me just a much. Zakyrah was talking up a storm.She gave me a ” 2.5 year olds ” synopsis of the day I had missed and I felt sooooooo relieved. I am glad my babies were ok with their Papi. He is a good Papi and he did a fantabulous job in spite of all my fears and concerns. Overall my first day was great. I only received 14.5 hours this week so I indeed hope that my hours increase or else I might have to find another job. Meanwhile Alex is still on the job search and still having a tremendously hard time landing somewhere due to reasons beyond our control. We just have to take the punches as they roll and hope for the best. Today I am going to be starting my Apartment searching because its becoming increasingly uncomfortable here. The property manager isn’t too keen on my family and has been trying to find reason to evict us since we moved in. Unable to find a legitimate reason she has turned to filing false allegations with the local police department and yesterday we received a visit from the police informing me of said allegations. I was throughly appalled when this happened. We are a nice family yet quit large. I consider us to be a ” Bi-Racial Multi-Generational Home ” but many of our neighbors don’t seem to except us because of this. Unfortunately buying a house isn’t an option for us at this time so we have to continue to rent. As long as we live in this area we will continue to have these types of issues where ever we live unless we buy as home. This makes it very hard because this is a nice area and we have lived in this same area for 10+ years so just up and leaving is easier said than done but something is going to have to give. Living under constant scrutiny is seriously becoming unbearable. I am going to do my best and keep my head held high and soon we will be ok.
Love,
Yana
Attention all Couponers:
I need some serious help. We are struggling and saving money however possible will help. Couponing seems like a good choice for our family being that its 8 of us in this house. Any suggestions on websites or how to get started?????????
Fisher Price APPtivity Case for iPHONE
This is the best thing that anyone could have ever given us for the girls. It completely protects our iPhone while entertaining the babies with Learning apps designed for ages 6m+. We have 2 for both of the girls ( and both our iPhones) but its so not expensive - we paid $19.99 a piece at a specialty toy store but I found it a target for $14.99.I definitely recommend for all iPhone user parents
PS- Its available for iPad as well.
Love,
Yana
(Source: target.com)
Dear Beloved Followers,
I wanna thank you all from the bottom of my heart for staying with me through my times of absence. I just was not in a position to blog for the past 3 months or so but I must say things are looking up and I am going to dedicate more time to my &&Then followers if you all will have me. With that being said here is a rundown of what has been going on in our lives for the past 3 months as well as to some goals for the future months to come. So if your ready lets dive into the fun………………………..
1st things first………. Baby Updates :
Zakyrah who is now 29 months ( 2 years and 5 months) is growing up so fast. I can’t give you official weight counts ( I will save that to her 2 and 1/2 yrs well check-up post) but I can say the girl is grown up. She wakes up each morning around 9:30a or 10a. First thing on her mind each morning is food. She eats cereal for breakfast almost every morning and for lunch its typically fruit and Chicken Nuggets. She is getting more into books and is very curious about learning. She often says she wants to go to school and learn : so cute right! She can speak in fully composed sentence which is something that she isn’t expected to do till she is closer to turning 3. Zakyrah’s favorite past time is movies and can ask for them by name or by the nickname she calls them ( can you guess what movie she is asking to watch when she says ” Mommy I wanna watch pickle me” lls) But over all she growing strong and that attitude is something else , let me tell you .
Zaliyah is now 7 months. She has such a pleasant personality and is an utter joy to be around. She acts as if she is teething but no teeth have made an appearance yet. She enjoys my phone but then again what kid wouldn’t like an iPhone lls. She is about 14.6lbs and 25 inches long. She loves to eat and does not let the fact that she has no teeth stop her from eating everything she wants. Otherwise Zaliyah is a healthy and active baby and I Love her so.
And for me ……….
Well I went natural about a month ago - its pretty cool unfortunately I am not posting any pics here just yet but if you care to follow me in Instagram you will see the dreads makin some appearances. ( Yaniskitty on instagram). I terminated my relationship with my Bestfriend of 6 years because I can’t take care of no one. She was living with for a while and received a large sum of money and didn’t offer to help with anything but in the meanwhile we were struggling to make rent which resulted in me going back to work. I start my first day at Hanna Andersson on Monday and I am pretty freaking excited if I must say so myself. Alex has been looking for work for almost 5 months now and hasn’t landed anywhere yet so I had to step up and work. He is going to do the stay at home dad thing until he can locate work. Once he does tho- I am not sure what we will do for childcare but I am sure we can figure this out. Since I am going back to work I have something new to worry about………. PUMPING !!!!!!! I have a EVENFLO COMFORT SELECT DUAL ELECTRIC PUMP that I have had since having Zakyrah but it doesn’t work all that great if you ask me. I suck at pumping or maybe my pump sucks at pumping - Boy do I wish I could afford a MEDELA but oh well. I have to try to pump at least 8oz to leave with Alex for the Boogie. I hope I am able to - that pump really sucks.I am open to any PUMPING TIPS anyone might can offer. I also need to build a professional wardrobe for work. I have noted some ideas from M at DEARBABY and I plan on going to the thrift store to figure out some things to wear to work. They have a no leggings policy along with a no jean policy so I really need to get some bottoms other than my black ones. But they have to be cheap - if anyone has any WARDROBE TIPS I am able to take those on as well.
OTHER WISE……… not much else has changed - still working hard to keep our heads above water.
Love,
Yana
ANY TIPS : PLEASE EMAIL ME AT ndthentherewere2@gmail.com - I will be truly grateful to receive any. <3
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